Tory & I needed to get out of the house. Sometimes, I swear, I live inside an insane asylum. There are so many times that I just can't handle it. I clean the house- busting my "arse" around, taking hours upon hours getting everything nice and in less than 12 hours, my house is right back to the huge train wreck it was when I started. I don't know how to do this "motherhood" thing. It is so hard. I am not one of those women who can be happy with staying at home all day, everyday. I just can't. It is not me. I need to miss my child. I need a mental and physical break during the week. I don't like routine, but when it comes to work, I need a job that are both, the same hours & days every week. So in that sense, I like having a routine. I want real weekends again, I want to look forward to Fridays and hate Mondays. Everyday for me is the same. It is like Groundhog Day over here. Help me out Bill Murray.